Nanny life.

So today Sophia was the artist and I was the canvas.

I don't know why but I always love the way paper towels look after painting.

Not bad for a third grader. I asked her what she thought about me getting the flower permanently tattooed on my face and she said, "Uhh that would be like the coolest thing like ever!!!!"

Colors.

Today I had a lovely, lovely day at the Santa Barbara Art Museum with a very special friend. I saw a painting from one of my favorite artists, Odilon Redon so I decided to look at some more of his stuff.

Some of his drawings:

It has been an inspiring day, in so many ways.

My great-grandmother. Her name was Julia. She was full-blooded Apache Indian and a total babe. My grandpa is the little one on the left. He is still that cute.

I am so thankful to be alive. Today I woke up at 4am. I couldn't go back to sleep so I just looked out my window up at the stars. I thought about life and I couldn't help but giggle at God's goodness.

I can't wait.

Until I see the Lord's face. When all of this is over. When everything makes sense. When everything is made right. When I finally have the one thing that I've always wanted. When there is no more darkness and only light.

I really wish I kept up on this blog more. I wish blogger didn't feel so archaic. Well here is a quick update on my life. I am moving to Santa Barbara in less than a week. I am going to be working as a nanny for the most awesome kid ever. I currently have a fractured rib. I pity women who lived in the Victorian age because this back brace feels like a corset. I am learning Spanish. Me gusta apprender espanol. My room is almost completely empty. Finding someone on craigslist to rent my room has been interesting. Its fun to mess with the scammers that think I don't know they're trying to scam me. I am going to miss San Luis Obispo. Its been hard living here but, I have never grown more in my life.

I am going to miss this view:

Photo taken by my best friend AnnaJoy.

Here is a recent picture of us:

Change is good. Life is good. God is good.

I have a crazy life.

Why? Because I am a crazy girl. If you want to know what I'm talking about, you're going to have to ask. There's no guarantee that I will tell you though.

Change.

I'm not sure if I like this blog anymore. I have had it for so long and I hardly ever post anything. Mainly because I suck at writing and blogger is too difficult when it comes to posting pictures. I do have a lot going on in my life and a lot I want to share, its just a pain in the butt to get it all together onto this blog. I'm going to try to keep this one going but I'll most likely make a new one.

Well, while I'm here I might as well document my day. Today is my day off. I'm going with my roommate to the new Target that just opened up in SLO! So excited! Then I will spend the rest of my day lying in bed reading my 5lb LOTR book. Yeah, you heard me. Also, one of my current aspirations in life is to get my etsy store back up and running. I have a to-do list that includes taking pictures of dresses that are currently in my closet and going to thrift stores and spending $20 on whatever I can find. This will be hard because I will probably end up finding stuff that I want to keep for myself. I have no self-control when it comes to clothes, especially cheap vintage.

I just stumbled upon some pictures of an amazing vintage clothing store in LA called TLO, which stands for The Loved One. So adorable. One of my many dreams is to own a shop like this one day!

via Hannah & Landon

I'm nuts.

I feel like everyday I'm trying to figure out who I am. At the end of each day I just realize that I'm more complicated than I was the day before. I feel like I am just a giant jumbled bag of stuff. I like it, I guess, but it makes it hard to get stuff done. I have one more free day tomorrow before I work a 5am shift. I hope I don't waste anymore time. Hmm, right now I love strawberries and hummingbirds. Cool huh.

Today

Today is a pretty good day so far. I am currently listening to Antonin Dvorak while looking at amazing blogs like Lovelorn Unicorn and The Style Scout. Its stormy outside so the rest of the day will be very mellow, consisting of watching episodes of Lost while making my best friends secret birthday present.

Pictures I love right now:

via Lovelorn Unicorn

via The Style Scout

Why do spammers keep commenting over and over? STOP IT

left my heart so far away

i want soo much to blog about everything in my life right now. i wish i could hire someone to just sit

and listen to me pour out my thoughts and then record everything into a blog post. so much is happening right now,

i just need to sit and prayerfully analyze things and hopefully i will get back to this. in the meantime...

some great words of wisdom and one of the highlights of my stay in london.

"Wait on the Lord." - Psalm 27:14

It may seem an easy thing to wait, but it is one of the postures which a Christian soldier learns not without years of teaching. Marching and quick-marching are much easier to God's warriors than standing still. There are hours of perplexity when the most willing spirit, anxiously desirous to serve the Lord, knows not what part to take. Then what shall it do? Vex itself by despair? Fly back in cowardice, turn to the right hand in fear, or rush forward in presumption? No, but simply wait. Wait in prayer,however. Call upon God, and spread the case before Him; tell Him your difficulty, and plead His promise of aid. In dilemmas between one duty and another, it is sweet to be humble as a child, and wait with simplicity of soul upon the Lord. It is sure to be well with us when we feel and know our own folly, and are heartily willing to be guided by the will of God. Butwait in faith. Express your unstaggering confidence in Him; for unfaithful, untrusting waiting, is but an insult to the Lord. Believe that if He keep you tarrying even till midnight, yet He will come at the right time; the vision shall come and shall not tarry. Wait in quiet patience, not rebelling because you are under the affliction, but blessing your God for it. Never murmur against the second cause, as the children of Israel did against Moses; never wish you could go back to the world again, but accept the case as it is, and put it as it stands, simply and with your whole heart, without any self-will, into the hand of your covenant God, saying, "Now, Lord, not my will, but Thine be done. I know not what to do; I am brought to extremities, but I will wait until Thou shalt cleave the floods, or drive back my foes. I will wait, if Thou keep me many a day, for my heart is fixed upon Thee alone, O God, and my spirit waiteth for Thee in the full conviction that Thou wilt yet be my joy and my salvation, my refuge and my strong tower."

-Charles H. Spurgeon

London

i leave in 3 days! :)

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Jesus is amazing!

fireflies! i love west virginia and west virginia loves me. Y

learn to love it

if i could...

have them... i would

give me. now.

my new fave band

okay so ive loved zooey ever since elf. i know pretentious people like to pretend she would never act in a movie as childish as elf but pretentious people don't read my blog sooo there. anyways i used to just have to settle for listening to her christmas song until i discovered she & him. i love her voice so much i want to bottle it up into a big seashell like ursula!

so simple and sweet

Growing pains.

My soul is now a little taller.

I am so stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. I should just wear an I'm with stupid shirt with an arrow pointing to my own face.

Im in san francisco.

SO AMAZING!

Wow. I have never heard better.

it would be kinda cool

if this was me.




im sorry but, shes freaking "epic". this summer while im swimmin i think im just going to pretend im her. yep.

nineteen yrs.

i kind of feel like ive been 19 forever. 19 is a nice age. i like it. i feel like its an age no one really talks about. so far today... well i went out to breakfast with my parents and went to green thumb and my mom bought me a baby cactus and there was a big pond there and i befriended a catfish. he was so cute, he let me pet him. maybe one day ill buy him. yeah i think i will. oh yeah my real cat. not catfish. well she barfed on my floor. such a sweeeeet bday prezent!

bjorkian

this is how i feel when im depressed and want to crawl into a hole and sleep for the rest of my life.

i live by the ocean

and during the night

i dive into it

down to the bottom

underneath all currents

and drop my anchor

and this is where i'm staying

this is my home

i dont know

if i like being a "blogger"

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Happy Thanksgiveeng

Okay so Jesus has blessed me with a lot of things in my life that I'm thankful for. But one of the things that I am most thankful for is the amazing, hilarious, beautiful best friend he's given me.

Phillipians 1:3 !

Rainy rain rain

Its raining! I'm so excited for winter and im going bezzzerrrk for CHRISTMAS! ohhh my goosshhhh. Lets see theres going to be sweaters and warm socks and scarves and gloves and warm drinks and cold drinks like snow sprinkles! and christmas songs and glowwy lights and christmas movies like ELF and asthahdah dahdahs and christmas christmas christmas!

look how snuggly my day is so far:

I'm so excited to

sleep in tomorrow morning
even if its only for a couple hours

Inseparable

Hi.

I just learned that there are more people reading my blog than I thought. I'm sorry I'm so weird.

Oh and here is a random recent picture of me and Anna

I Miss...

MY BEST FRIEND!

Merry Christmas!

Despite the circumstances.

This is going to be the best Christmas ever. : )

I'm not afraid of anything because I know of the Lord's faithfulness. He's brought me through so much and will bring me through so much more. My life ahead of me is a blank book as far as I know. It always has been. I now know not to think that I know anything in the future. One thing that I do know is that God will be with me and never stop loving me and he will give me the best he has if I let him. And boy, do I want to let him. He will never ever let me down. Its just me and Him now. I'm looking forward to everything he's going to do in my life. I'm looking forward to growing in him. I thank him everyday for surrounding me with friends and family who love me (Anna!). I thank him for the comfort and peace he's given me. I also ask for forgivness for ever doubting him and thinking that he couldnt make things as great as he has. I'm going to try my very best to keep in my mind that he has a plan for me and that he will take care of everything. The last thing I want to do is try and take things into my own hands. I had been praying and praying for more of him and now I have it, without any distractions or reservations. The one thing I do struggle with though is the thoughts that satan puts into my head. He tries to get me to think that everything isn't going to be okay. He tries to make me think that God doesn't have everything under control. He tries to make me feel helpless, depressed, anxious, lonely. Most of all he tries to make me think that my plans were better than God's plans. He's such a deceiving little worm and is SOOOO jealous that I get to live eternally in heaven with Jesus while he is "...thrown into the lake of burning sulfur, where the beast and false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever." Revelation 20:10

So anyways, he's bummed and I'm not. This past week has been amazing. I'm so excited to go see Phil Wickham Friday night with Anna! I'm excited for church this Sunday! I'm also extremely excited for the Mexico Missions Trip! I know its going to be a life changing experience for me. I've been thinking about maybe going on missions trips after I graduate. Its just an idea. I dont know, I'll have to see what the Lord wants. Well, this is my life as of now.

I will end this post with a profound quote.

"I don't like the way those guys just looked at you. HEY! Can't you see this woman is a nun?"

Hug hug, kiss kiss, hug hug, big kiss, little hug, kiss kiss, little kiss.

broken i run to you, for your arms are open wide.

so i wait for you, im falling on my knees, offering all of me, jesus youre all this heart is living for.

i am weary, but i know your touch restores my life.



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